Boy! Did I Blow it Today!

Ok, folks - I really, really messed up today. They say that we're most vulnerable to overeating when we're: Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired, or Stressed. Well today I got hit with a triple whammy: hungry, tired and stressed. And it just happened to be on the day that we're having an office potluck to honor one of my employees who is leaving, and who has been a major part of my department for over three years. We made the theme for the potluck "Healthy Foods", but of course there was all kinds of stuff there. And you know what? All sense of reason, common sense and will power flew out of my head, and I filled my plate and ate every bit of it. Of course, I didn't eat as much as I would have in the past, because my stomach has shrunk so much, but I still ate some food that I think is going to really cause a setback.

So - don't be surprised if I post about gaining a significant amount of weight tomorrow, because I'm ready to face the music.

This whole episode also drives home the fact that, for me, food is an addiction. I don't know if I'll ever be able to completely rid myself of it. Planning really does seem to help - it's just when the emotions take over and the mental fortitude goes out the window that things seem to just avalanche. Hindsight tells me that the Callahan Technique/EFT might have been a really good tool to use today, but my presence of mind just wasn't anywhere near there. It almost felt like I was possessed by a really hungry being who wanted nothing more than just to eat and eat and eat, and to heck with the consequences! Then, of course, reality set in when the damage had already been done.

Oh well. Time to get back after it, drink a ton of water for the rest of the day, and then just plan on powering through the bad results tomorrow and getting back to the plan.